Not much...besides the BRUINS!

Today was my first day of work. It was SO chill. My supervisor is insanely cool its amazing. She basically let's you do whatever as long as your doing your work. It's weird because it's  different from what I'm use to. I worked in bigger cafes and it  was crazy all the time but because this is a business building it's a bit smaller. It was SO slow today. I did nothing and everything is wicked easy, it won't take me long to learn the ropes. It helps that they just started because this place just opened the other day because they switched companies. I can get use to this real quick:) So I WAS having a good day till I came home and my mother ruined it with her bitchy self, as usual.

I need to get out of this house. Yes I'm tired of it already. I'm bored as fuck and theres nothing to do. I get to see my friends tomorrow which is going to be really exciting and really fun. Can't wait! But heres the problem, I have to see bitch and her new boyfriend who really should have been mine. I might vomit. Nothing a drink or two can't handle and then I won't even pay them any mind. I hate getting hurt and screwed over at the same time.

So I need luck. My friend is going to talk to her boss at Saus tomorrow to get me a job. Hopefully they take me because then I won't have to work in Lowell. I really want to work there and work with my good friend. It would be a sick summer of just working. Right my life is soooooo excited..NAHT. I know but it'll all be worth it in the end. AND hope that I get that Sunday school job too! I'd be so happy if I could do all of them. WISH ME LUCK. Well I don't have much thought today, I'm kinda in a pissy mood right now.

Before I go I would like to thank summer-claire for giving me an award for stylish blogger!:)


I've never gotten an award before..this is my first! YAY! SOOO go check her out at http://summerdreamsx.blogspot.com/ ...her blog is actually pretty good...haha ;) thanks girl!

OH and by the way BRUINS ARE ON TONIGHT! WOOOOH LETS GOOOOOO! :)

until next time
-saskia

It's Time To Love ME

Okay guys I've got some fabulous news! I got a job! YAY! I had an interview yesterday with this place called Sebastian's. It's a cafe, I will be doing line cook and cashier. I start next Monday. It's a Monday-Friday 9-3 shifts everyday no weekends. perfect! That leaves me time to find a job I can work nights and weekends. It gets better! I have an interview next Tuesday at this place called Lowell Beer Works. I had applied for the Hostess position. Hopefully I get that job and can work nights and weekends. If  not that place my friend Lauren works at the place called Saus in Boston in Fanuiel Hall which would be sick cause I love Lauren she's soo funny and on my rugby team. So basically I'm in for a quite a summer;) lets keep our fingers crossed for me! Plus it's beautiful out!

Okay so heres the issue. One of my teammates is a bit of a bitch right now. She is a selfish bitch who only cares about herself. So remember the boy I told you guys I may or may not have feelings for? Well can't do jack shit about that now because she just dove in and stole him from me. It gets better. SHE KNEW I HAD FEELINGS FOR HIM. Yup, backstabbing bitch. She knew and still did it and I'm very resentful towards her right now. Like you just don't do that. She the type of girl that only cares about her and her own selfish needs and everyone else can fend for themselves. She already screwed over 3 BEST FRIENDS by fucking all of them. She's a fucked up person. I'm just waiting for this relationship to FAIL MISERABLY. And guess whose gonna end up fucking it up, HER. Yup I called it. What sucks even more is that I think I still kind of like him and it hurts like hell to try and get over it. I've learned that in life your heart chooses who you like and don't like and who you love. You can't help it, it's just how it's gotta be. I've decided to take a whole new outlook on life cause I'm just SO TIRED of getting my heart ripped out of my chest and stomped on. I'm just gonna love me. It's time that I start loving myself and that's it. If it's all about me then I won't get hurt. It may sound a little selfish yes but I've been through way too much and have cared way too much about others and haven't really gotten that same respect back. Someone's gotta do it and if I can find someone to love me than I'm just gonna love myself. That's my easy way out of a broken heart. I've come to terms with all of that now.

So my plans for the rest of the week? Tomorrow I have to go in and fill out paper work for this job and stuff. Saturday is my little sister's dance recital and then I'm leaving to NH for my friends birthday party which is going to be insane. Basically it's going to be a mini reunion  of all my friends:) I'm pretty excited. Well everyone have a fabulous Wed!!
till next time
-Saskia

My Focus

Wah! It's been forever I know and I'm extremely sorry! I'm home for the summer, so now I have plenty of time to talk about my pointless life. So I got home last Saturday. I stayed for senior week, which was AMAZING. It was really fun just being with the seniors with their last few days at good ole frankie p! It was really chill, for once, no drama of underclassmen, you can do whatever you want and no one gave a shit. And everyone was shitfaced the entire time. Haha, every night I was gone...bad but it was a good time. Now I'm taking a break because by Saturday my tummy hurt, A LOT hah. But I'm going back up next Saturday for my good friend Sam's birthday. It should be fun. I need a break from this house already! By the way, I'm on that 3.0 status for my GPA, HELL YA! I worked my ass off this semester for that, and I'll be damned if I let myself fuck that up. Hell no! Everyone was actually really surprised that I got that. What the hell man!? I'm not stupid! I'm actually quite intelligent and vivid when I WANT to be. But no one looks past party girl Saskia Joseph. I don't even party that much. Okay well that's a lie. But so does everyone else! When I'm out the same people are out too! So they can piss off if they think I'm a fucking dunce. You gotta do what it takes to make it in life, and I did it, the hard way too not the easy way. I studied, I did all my papers, I did all my power-points,  EVERYTHING. Suck it.

So my goals for the summer: GET A JOB! Do you know how hard it is to actually find one?? REAL HARD. But I NEED one. It's crucial to my goals. And I'm tired of working in the food industry, this is how I get FAT. Which leads into my next goal: LOSE WEIGHT.  I need to so bad. And this time, It's legit. I want to lose weight for myself, so I can feel good about who I am, and when I look in the mirror, it won't be disgust, it'll be like "Damn whose that chick?" I want to look in the mirror and smile at the person looking back. "Happiness: the ability to look in the mirror and like the person looking back..." I want that. And then comes everything that comes with losing weight, being noticed and maybe someone will actually be interested in me. I know looks aren't everything, but they really are. In this cut throat society looks are EVERYTHING. As much as I don't want to believe and you don't want to believe, deep down, you know it really is. Well I'm gonna do it. I'm gonna try and lose as much weight as possible. If anyone has ANY TIPS, please do share because anything helps:) I'll also keep this blog as a diary of my progress as well as my life, so updating will be must! More of ME YAY!:)
My next goal: GET A CAR...which well, getting a job needs to come first, I've applied at over 20 places and nowhere has gotten back. FML. I'm going to the mall on Monday to find any openings, wish me luck and keep your fingers crossed for me!
So yeah, no where in there does it say enjoy my summer, because I know when I do find a job, I will be selling my soul to that place. Yup...no biggie. Either way thats what the school year is for. It's okay. I'm over it.

So those are my goals and where my priorities are right now. Lets hope for the best. And OF COURSE I will DEF keep everyone updated. This time is for real.
Until next time:)
-Saskia

Going Green!

Okay. So really quick! I was looking on Jodi's blog and she talks about this real cool way of basically helping the enviorment. Lets face it, we suck at saving this world. Basically the link can help your blog go green! Sweet right!?! So if you put the badge of you blog and write about, then you get a tree planted for you! What!? thats awesome to even think about, someone planting a tree for me because of this simple task...too bad life isn't this easy! Well check it out=]
 http://www.kaufda.de/umwelt/carbon-neutral/how-you-can-join/